Monday, November 24, 2008
Recently I have begun searching for God. He is everywhere. Ever since I made the decision to formally attend Seminary along with Nursing School I have been at peace. Its strange how God works in mysterious ways.
Have you ever gotten the feeling that your less of a person? I have experience that many times growing up, being black, being relatively intelligent and being well... a heathen.
Color? Not once at any job I have been at has this NOT happened: Me being by far the most experienced person available, and somebody choosing not to ask me under the assumption that I am stupid.
Intelligence? Most of my friends are from the lower echelon of society. Intelligence has been more shunned than accepted. In the words of Chris Rock (Nigga's love to NOT know things). For a great deal of my life I had to pretend I was stupider than I let on.
Heathen? It does not matter that I am Christian, if I make a mistake, my entire faith will be called into question by people. I have been a Christian for about 6-7 years of life. I have been Godless for 21 years of my life. I have tried like hell to go back, but I can't. Once you are shown the truth it is impossible to go back.
Now this does not apply to everyone by far, isolated incidents that occur frequently if you will. But I believe God has power over all these things. He is in control , and he has a plan. If my purpose in life was to serve as a warning to others, then I would be perfectly happy if it was fulfilling Gods will. Ultimately God's plan is the utmost importance.
